What can you do after your 4 year old cousin has ped away in your arms?

My 4 year old cousin has ped away when I was holding him in my arms on Tuesday when i was watching Oprah and on Oprah I hear Kristin Chenoweth Sing For Good to Oprah and I started to cry because I was thinking about all the good time I had with my 4 year old cousin. If anyone knows what I can do after my 4 year old cousin has just ped away on Tuesday please email me at Jermey123@gmail.com and please check out this video http://www.oprah.com/oprahshow/Kristin-Chenoweth-Sings-For-Good-Video.